Loss, Love, and Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is tough for me. It was just a few weeks after my husband died and is still so closely tired to that whole experience. Last Thanksgiving I was cooking some of our family favorites for the new love of my life and brought them to him to incorporate into his family celebration. It felt symbolic and it felt so fun – to be cooking for someone that loved me so much and thought I was something so special. This year, I’m cooking just a few things for my girls and our family. They all think I’m special too – so I got that going for me, which is nice. 🙂 I’ve had some much needed attention from the opposite sex this week too – so I’m planning on making that a new Thanksgiving tradition.

30 Random Things That I Am Thankful For

It has been a rough few months, it’s true. But I do have many things in my life that I am crazy grateful for. My untraditional list, in no particular order:

  1. My 3 amazing children that I love beyond reason and that love me to Mars and back.
  2. Wine
  3. My mom and dad and brother – family is so good
  4. Tequila
  5. My extended family – in-laws and cousins and aunts and uncles. Love extends far and wide
  6. My family by choice – my best friends. What in the world would I do without you!
  7. My bed – I have a really great bed. My bed is my happy place, my relaxation space and my safety zone
  8. Kissing – is there anything better?
  9. My widowed friends who just get it
  10. Writing – and having people tell me that my writing has touched them
  11. Great sex
  12. Bob’s Burgers
  13. The feeling you get from waking up at 3am with the warmth of someone you love right next to you
  14. Good Coffee
  15. Finding the perfect gift for someone and watching as they open it
  16. Dating an amazing guy that makes you forget about all the sadness and  disappointment in life – for a while at least.
  17. Caller ID
  18. My phone
  19. Getting the perfect advice, right when I need to hear it
  20. Black Leggings
  21. Netflix
  22. Thankful my youngest still believes in Santa Claus. It’s a lot of work but this is the end of the innocence.
  23. Online shopping from my really great bed
  24. Friends…with benefits
  25. Ice Cream. I could go pro.
  26. Sleeping with the windows open on a chilly night with down comforter and expensive sheets
  27. Bacon
  28. Sushi
  29. Love
  30. Heartbreak – because it means you had something so amazing that losing it almost broke you. Almost.